love...

i always thought that love wasn't meant for me
love was something from fairy tales and movies
from princes and princesses
in places with rivers and hills
not for my life
in my life,
love hurted
love was my parents who argue all the time
in my life
love was painful
love was my best friend who fell in love with me but i didn't feel anything for him
love was not beautiful.
that was the day that i swore to myself that i would never fall in love, if it wasn't real
love was too big and too scary for me
i was okay with the fact that i was alone
love wasn't meant for me
i took a distance from everybody
built a wall around me
stone after stone
day after day
love didn't exist
love would never rule about me

until i met you
you are the only exception
you've changed everything
my sky turned from blue to love
my smile turned from glass to sunshine
and love broke down the wall
stone after stone
day after day
you gave love another dimension
you are love
but you know
i still afraid of love
still afraid that love never lasts
that's why i never told you
i so afraid
but, i love you, i really do
i wish you knew

the river speaks